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I’ve just been really busy lately, and haven’t been around to write to you in some time. I leave for work in 30 minutes, but I’ve had some thoughts that haven’t been leaving me lately that I thought I’d share with you (and the public, I suppose)

First is the hard part, figuring out where to start. I could start by saying that work is going shitty. I hate it; can’t wait to get out. It’s nothing very serious that’s wrong with where I work. I mean my coworkers are awesome, my managers are the shit, but the work itself is killing me mentally. My job literally consists of reading a word for word script to somebody I don’t know, them usually getting mad and yelling at me. Please don’t misunderstand, I’ve only been there for a few months so I have no room to really complain, or to bitch. But it’s just my feelings, and impressions of the job so far.

Next we’ll talk shit about a few other things. One person I used to be so close with seems like they’re blind to everything around them. They have the world right in front of their face, but refuse to take hold. She’s like a fly paper, attracting all of the nasty flies and unwanted bugs. That brings me to my next point, some of the people who I’m very close with today, are those same flies. Either way you look at it, people are starting to look worse and worse through my eyes. It seems like we need to go back about 50 years or so with how we look at things, or treat people nowadays. Some people are still sane and able to stay from acting like a fool, and should be an inspiration of today’s youth. But that’s enough about that…………..

Then we’ll talk about how all of that shit makes me think about getting the fuck out of here. Not just physically, but in every way. I need something else in my life. I wouldn’t say I’m in a rut, or depressed, or anything like that. I’m working, I’m happy, but it’s just my habitat at the moment. My ideal surroundings would be waking up in a place with my soulmate, opening my curtains and seeing a big city like Los Angeles, or something. What would my friends, or family think?

Lastly we’ll close this entry. All in all, my life is doing okay, but I would say I’m only about 60% satisfied with it at the moment. I just need something else, a new hobby, a new lover, a new interest, SOMETHING. Something to keep me sharp as a knife, but to also broaden my horizon in some way. Until next time.

I’m back

It HAS been a while since I’ve used Tumblr, for blogging, or even posting silly pictures every now and again.

I do want to start blogging quite a bit, since now finally everything is looking up for a change, not like before, not like ever before. I have a full time job, and actually keeping up with it. I will be moving into my own place shortly. Not tomorrow, this week, or even this month, but soon. The only things that are still getting me down, are the same things that have been getting me down for the past year or so now. Those things are now hardwired into my soul, and mind. Those things will fade with time, but then again, so will everything else.

People will say how terrible things are for them, or how they hate how something is, or how they don’t want to do this particular thing. Sure, everyone has those moments, but is it really worth it to drag on that feeling for days on end? Even weeks? I have a lot of terrible things to say about a lot of people I don’t like, or about things I don’t like seeing, hearing, or doing. Please bear in mind, I do feel bad for the people who can’t get head out of their own asses and see the light of day, instead of eating their own shit all day and being sad about it. Even though it IS their fault they are depressed, or sad, or mad, or anything feeling like that, I do still feel bad for them.

But enough of that -

All I have to say, is that I am happy, even if things aren’t how I wished they were. I’ll be back tomorrow Tumblr, time to go to work. <3